The Obsidian Lens
I’ve been doing some thinking. About writing. About our and my readers, and about the upcoming 2 year anniversary of this blog. We went live on Nov 12, 2009.
From the Own Your Dark Side poll, the results as of this writing are for a sample of 50 readers. 58% percent of respondents have frequent fantasies involving non-con. And for over 1/3, that’s the dominant sexual fantasy type. That doesn’t surprise me very much, considering what we write, though my real non-con has been off site for about a year and a half. I’m thinking of changing that, at least part way.
The reason my non-con isn’t public anymore is due to a promise I made. I moved it all to a private blog accessible only by invitation, so that the audience would be limited and controllable. I intend to continue to keep my promise, while at the same time being a little more flexible and complete with who I am as a writer. What that means is I plan to reinstate the stories I’ve removed from this blog but keep them behind a password access. And here’s the catch. I’ll give you the password if you want it – but only if I know you. How do I know you? I know you if I interact with you. If you’ve written a comment or shared thoughts on any of my stories with more than ‘I liked it’, you’re in if you wish. If we converse on the interwebs (this counts twitterfolk), you’re in if you wish.
If that price of admission is too high; if you feel it’s capricious or arbitrary, I understand. But them’s the rules, for now at least. I’m going to start reinstating the stories in the next couple days and putting links back up to them on a new dedicated page. If you want in, post a request in the comments below, with ‘ObsidianLens’ (all one word) in the text. It’ll be held for moderation, and, if you fit the creteria and you include a way to contact you (preferably an e-mail) I’ll send you the access password. If you haven’t commented, and want access to these stories, well, why don’t you find something of mine you liked – or didn’t like – and say so now. It’s never, ever to late to comment on a posted story. Tell me what you think. And, yeah, a note saying just something like ‘send me the password’, or ‘Me me me!’ ain’t gonna do it either. If you think that makes me an arrogant, elitist prick, then you’re probably right.
Another reason I’m doing this is that some of the things I know I want to write would fall into this category too. Non-conset, and other stories of the darker variety are on my to-write list. That hasn’t been the case for a long time, but now that it is, I’d kind of like a place where it can be seen, even if by a small set of readers. Not that I can promise anything specific at any specific time. But, I want the avenue open for the if and when.
Now, if nobody is interested in this, that’s also fine. This post will just drift down and settle into obscurity, but at least I’ll have put things more the way I wanted to, and it’ll make my oeuvre in the blog a little bit more whole something I think appropriate to start a third year.
If you have thoughts about this you’d like to share, you’re invited to. If you don’t put ‘ObsidianLens’ in the comment, it’ll post normally.
Note: Any comments with ‘ObsidianLens’ will remain private and not be published in the comment section.
-M
Redbud’s Addendum
For reason’s of my own, I’ve also been reluctant to post stories with these themes. The Obsidian Lens gives me the opportunity. I’ll be moving some stories already written, and I’ll be writing new stories to be included in Obsidian Lens. The same password will work for my stories as well.
Two years already? Congratulations on the accomplishment! Keep up the good work, all three of you!
Ohhh whee! It is about to get filthy sweet, naughty bad and freak nasty! Alllll riiighht! ( double high 5!)
All giggles and wiggles aside, many hearty good wishes and cheers on your project and letting your wings spread. I do like to see growth, be it up to the skies or way down, into the fiery depths of hell.
Thank you very much, Liras. That is indeed the idea.
Well, “me me me me me” doesn’t fall in to the perview of “non consent” does it?
*smiles*
That said, yeah. me me me.
(i can’t help it, i’m just naughty like that!!)
nilla
you know where to find me…
We do indeed know where to find you. And the stories within… well be careful what you wish for.
*smiles*
My Master says “consider well before charging forward”…
i won’t get my first “taste” until early next week. Tomorrow, work, no computer, and a phone date with the Man when i head to bed…Sunday…the very vanilla task of raking leaves, i’m afraid. (and then, churchwork, followed immediately by a face-to-face necking visit with M…isn’t that naughty??)
Thanks for sharing your darkness with me. i will venture forth carefully…
nilla
Hi, chaps.
First, congratulations on your wonderful two years! This is one of my favourite sites, and I’m thrilled to see you look like continuing and evolving.
I know I comment more on Will’s writings than Raz’s. There are reasons for this that are, frankly, dull and a little pathetic, so I shan’t bore you. But i (think I ) have commented on both, and the ObsidianLens intrigues me. If you think it OK, I’d like to keep reading. Everything.
Best,
Squeaky
Hey there Squeaks. I know we’ve both appreciated your comments for a long time. Welcome in. (I deleted your mail addy from your comment, just to let you know)
My Dark Side of the Obsidian Lens. Well, about 55 years ago, I read a passage in Kipling’s Stalky & Co.where they trussed Beetle up for “cockfighting” to entice the two bullies next door into joining the fight. My copy of the book, the 1929 edition, shows Beetle’s hands tied in front of his shins, and a cricket stump above his wrists and behind his knees.
My fantasy was to be tied in the same way, but naked, and challenged to penetrate, or be penetrated by a female tied in the sme way, by means of the cricket stumps. That fantasy is with me still.
I still have the book and can send you the illustration, if you want it. Oh, Stalky & Co? 1899.
On a contemporary note, the book’s final chapter has Stalky’s contemporaries regaling themselves with Stalky’s exploits in Afghanistan!
Sorry I did not comment immediately, but I was distracted by the prospect of a very unpleasant hospital visit today.
Peter
That’s fascinating, Peter. I’d be ver interested in seeing an illo that had that kind of effect.
Writing is painting word pictures and you paint sexual word pictures that we can see and hear and smell and watch stuff drip out of and feel the hunger, fear, apprehension, pain and raw oozing need. Very few times in our lives do we ever experience such things but in those moments you are gloriously alive with the sexual volume knob turned all the way up! You write erotica like Michaelangelo painted! Keep it up
RaaaZZZZ..!
Do I not get a password for Obsidian Lense? Was my comment too ambiguous?
I thought you would have already had my email, but.. here… again…
Thanks for the inclusion!
Hey there. I sent out a mail Friday I think, but it may have had a misspelling in the address. You should have it now. (Plus I deleted it from your comment for your privacy).
That email is public, but, thank you, I appreciate your concern Raz!
Dear Monocle
Non-con is my nearly favorite taboo. Thank you for sharing your darker works
Thalia
Hi Monocle. I’ve been a lurker here for a long time. I’ve left a couple of comments, and I’d really like to keep reading? Thanks for writing, everything.
Monocle – Just arrived a week or so ago to find the door has been closed so to speak to a section of the library. Undoubtedbly as a writer you can understand the frustration as you hear or see part of an intriguing scene only to have the elevator ascends to the next floor. Naturally, I’d like the password to roam the corridors at will, but I best leave matters to those who man the front desk.
Hi Matlock. This section of the library’s actually been totally closed for most of two years, and I’ve re-opened it with fairly easy entry requirements.
Hiyall,
I’m practically a lurker here (mostly on Redbud’s stories, but I do love some Monocle heat some times!) and would love a pass behind the door. I’ll try to leave more comments for you in exchange, and I don’t promise that lightly. I know the sort of punishments that you write about! ;-)
Welcome, Patient one. I’m sure we could arrange a punishment you’d like despite yourself.
Dear Monocle, Redbud and Ximena,
Oh dear, I’m guity. Guilty of not better communicating my appreciation. From the first Nightmare, I have been an assiduous collector of all three of you. I’m so unhappy about the lock-out.
Please, please, please, let me in through the Obsidian Lens.
Peter.
Obsidian Lens
With the promise of more of Ximena’s stories, yeah, I think I would like access.
jvstin@gmail.com
Hey Peter and Paul, take a quick look through the body of the post above for the entry requirements to Obsidian Lens. I promise they’re not too onerous. -M
I failed reading comprehension and see why the comment didn’t work ;)
I have to admit more of a lurker and a reader than a commentor. But I get very disappointed when my daily email is password protected. *ugh*
I’ll try to comment more and more and look forward to peeking behind your password protected door.
You have prompted me to start writing again as well, thank you.
You write some extraordinary stuff. Prose you can see, taste, touch, smell and hear of sweaty people out on the ragged edge of sexuality dancing gloriously on the edge of the cliff. Those moments of our lives where we experienced that feeling are indelibly etched in our memories forever. We relive that feeling in what you write. Great job!
Wow Shaf, that compliment banquets a starving writer. I’m guessing your compliment was directed at Monocle, but comments like yours encourage us all.
Most like it dark, as in noncon huh? Well Monocle, I’ve been a fan of your stories ever since you were writing on the old Gotfanart Site, and I must say that your erotic horror is top notch! Unfortunately given the nature of many of those couplings, like in “Perimeter Violation” or “Spell Failure” they are mostly if not all noncon stories.
Well, as far as erotic horror goes, I tend to like it when it ends in pregnancy, especially when the pregnancy runs its course and the woman gives birth to her unnatural offspring.
My two favorites in that regard are Perimeter Violation and Spell Failure. But I must say that there are at least two of your consensual stories that I think can go toe to toe with the two aforementioned non con stories.
“Spooning”- Sure, the female initiates it while the male is asleep, but I think it was definitely consensual, not to mention erotic as hell! One thing that connects both the noncon and consensual stories that you write is the imaginative scenarios you come up with. Another thing is the level of detail you put into it.
“In The Dark”-I read this way back at your Monocular Vision site. If memory serves, it was technically consensual because Sandra’s lover gave her a chance to say go away on many occasions. I compare and contrasted this story to the non con stories “Exhaling” and “The Garden”. Its just as sexually driven and explicit, but the female party is given the option of how far the love play should go, unlike in “The Garden” and even more so in Exhaling.”
Any who, the fact that I liked “Spooning” and “In The Dark” as much as “Perimeter Violation” and “Spell Failure” even though there is no pregnancy or birthing in them should tell you where your consensual stands when compared to the ultimate of the nonconsenual that you write.
I just bought your “Through a Haunted Lens” a couple months back and loved it, even though I think it was missing “Ghosting”. That was a good story and though unfinished I could not help picturing that the ghosts were going to use the woman to try to be reborn. But that’s just me. I was exposed to and corrupted by movies like Demon Seed and Rosemarry’s Baby at a young age, so the birth of something unnatural is the ultimate climax to an unnatural coupling between monster and woman IMHO. Thank you for your time.
These Obsidian Lens stories are just the right amount of dark for me….
Sunday Tease (and I liked the opening so much I bought the book). Because the woman is no-one and anyone, or my wife in an ideal, best-possible world. And because, for me, married sex should be the most passsionate, violent, dangerously fulfilling and sacred possible. And I’d love to read some of the ObsidianLens stories.
Thanks, David! I appreciate your comment, and I hope you found the rest of the book as enjoyable as Sunday Tease. An e-mail is coming your way.
Considering the Internet is an open and if needed; blind forum, restricting the readership of your stories to “your chosen few” is reader segregation. To suddenly make the decision to censure your own work because it might be too severe is non-sensical. Readers don’t come to you looking for stories about puppies and butterflies. By this action, you’re telling anyone that comes here, “you can read my work, but only those that I know and like can have what was available to everyone not so long ago”. I can see you’ve put alot of thought and effort into this and I very much doubt that you will forgo your little club anytime soon. So I’ll leave you (and this web site for good) with a comparison. You complain that Paypal is restricting your writing from reaching readers because of new censorship rules. You have done the exact same thing.
You have a valid point, and if my situation were as you describe, then it would be a compelling one. It is not, however. I removed my OL stories from free public view by the request of the only person in my life with the power to make that request. I did it to honor and respect that person’s desire, even if it wasn’t something I particularly wanted to do. Does that make me hypocritical? I can only put it to you, the reader, to decide. The stories are still available, and the ‘fee’ for accessing them is extremely modest (and, I note, utterly non-monetary). If you actually read the requirement, becoming one of the ‘chosen few’ is about as easy as writing a critical comment on a blog post. In fact it is exactly that easy. Please note also that nowhere does it say I have to like you personally to let you in – that’s you reading something into my post that’s simply not there.
Well, I’ll tell you what: when you stop posting comments as Anonymous and give me the login and password to your email account, I’ll agree with you that the internet is ‘open’.
In the meantime, it’s HIS writing and he can do what the fuck he likes with it.
And NO it is nothing like paypal. Paypal doesn’t write books or sell them. It’s an online transaction processor.
And you, my friend, have the critical thinking skills of a newt.
Do you not read for content? He restricts access to honor a promise that he made.
And he does not ask that much to gain access to those stories: comment on stories to “introduce” yourself, then ask for the password.
Seriously, nothing like the PayPal bs.
Hi Anon, the analogy doesn’t quite work. Here’s why: Monocle isn’t refusing to give you access to these stories. Paypal, on the other hand, is. But let’s say Paypal changed its mind (again). Even so, Paypal (as with any similar service on the internet) would still require that you provide identifying information — like a credit card number. What Monocle is doing is analogous to that. He’s not asking for identifying information, only that you participate and have a relationship with him and us if you want to read these other stories. Also, Monocle isn’t censuring his work (or censoring it for that matter). It’s still available.
RM: //And you, my friend, have the critical thinking skills of a newt.//
My newt is not talking to me now. Thanks a lot, RM. She’s taken down your avatar from her tiny little room. She’s distraught. That’s all I can say. She worshiped you. I hope you’re happy now.
@ Will…laughing…seriously feel like shit today, and this one wee comment regarding your ‘newt’ made me giggle out loud…
Raz,
Anonymice are a pain, but are they worth all this hassle and indignation?
I love RG’s comment, but don’t you think she is insulting the little newt!
I agree that it is impossible to justify Pay-Pal’s BS, I believe that RG and you three have covered that ground more than adequately.
You have many loyal and intelligent readers.
In this case one bad apple does not spoil the lot.
Paul.
I totally agree with paul here…anonytroll is getting tons of jollies out of this, I’m sure. If s/he is truly a reader (with the skills of a newt? gosh i kinda like newts…) then s/he knows how to get linked to the naughty dirty FREE stories, as Mon was very up front on how to get the password. Mon’s is not the only password protected blog. I myself have one. If all anonytroll can do is have a hissy fit about “censorship” rather than leaving a decent comment, then tis their loss. . .
nilla
I think newt was a polite way of saying something else.
It’s not rocket science to figure out a polite email or a comment or six somewhere here will gain access to the wonders of those painted word pictures as someone so eloquently scrawled.
As we say in this household when someone is being silly … “Dear Anon. Don’t be a dick.”
I too have censored posts where I write. It’s no biggie, ask and ye shall receive, yes it’s really that simple and in this case it’s pretty much the same. . Normally there are valid reasons as to why a writer may have a need to create an extra level to access work … ask first and don’t judge.
//I think newt was a polite way of saying something else.//
I know… I know… She’s being completely unreasonable, but she’s a newt. She won’t talk about it. Maybe tomorrow…